Last nite, I was awaken (at abbout 2.30am) by a sudden thought: what would have happenned if I had seized the opportunity to lay out my cards in a relationship which ended a year ago?
The opportunity did arise at that time but I was filled with saddness + anger that I didn't grasp it. If I was able to control my emotions and acted 'rationally', I might still be in the relationship. But then there are other things that bugged me about the whole relationship that I didn't think it's worth staying.
I have always trusted my inner voice/feelings and think it is best to go separate ways for a while. I need to find myself again. If the relationship is meant to be, then a reconciliation might be possible.
For the time being, my life is pretty stable and smooth sailing :)
Friday, September 9, 2011
Tuesday, September 6, 2011
Openness...
Our days are numbered - some are destined to live only a few days or weeks, others push through the century mark. But whether we live a day or a century, a central question always remians: What is the purpose of our life? ie. what makes our life meaningful?
It seems like common sense that our purpose of existence is to seek happiness ~ but isn't a life based on seeking personal happiness by nature self-centered, even self-indulgent? Apparently not...
Research has shown that happy people exhibit a certain quality of openness, a willingness to reach out and help others. In fact, it is the unhappy people who tend to be most self-focused and are often socially withdrawn, brooding and even antagonistic. For eg., "Well, I've been stuck here waiting all this time; why shouldn't they?"
Hence, as one begin to identify the factors that lead to a happier life, one will learn how the search for happiness - offers benefits not only for oneself but the family and society at large.
My thoughts: being open is one of the many ways leading to a happier inner self - don't be afraid to be open. =)
ftnote: above are excerpts from: "The Art of Happiness" by HH Dalai Lama and Howard Cutler
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It seems like common sense that our purpose of existence is to seek happiness ~ but isn't a life based on seeking personal happiness by nature self-centered, even self-indulgent? Apparently not...
Research has shown that happy people exhibit a certain quality of openness, a willingness to reach out and help others. In fact, it is the unhappy people who tend to be most self-focused and are often socially withdrawn, brooding and even antagonistic. For eg., "Well, I've been stuck here waiting all this time; why shouldn't they?"
Hence, as one begin to identify the factors that lead to a happier life, one will learn how the search for happiness - offers benefits not only for oneself but the family and society at large.
My thoughts: being open is one of the many ways leading to a happier inner self - don't be afraid to be open. =)
ftnote: above are excerpts from: "The Art of Happiness" by HH Dalai Lama and Howard Cutler
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Friday, August 26, 2011
Remembering yesterday ~
Remembering yesterday ~ "...I ran so fast that time, youth at last ran out and I never stopped to think what life is all about..."
Now, as I pause and take stock of my life... there are still so many songs to be sung and many friendships to be rekindled and strengthened :)
Here's the song that brought up this nostalgic feeling...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CRaIvpMNpJw&feature=related
Now, as I pause and take stock of my life... there are still so many songs to be sung and many friendships to be rekindled and strengthened :)
Here's the song that brought up this nostalgic feeling...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CRaIvpMNpJw&feature=related
Thursday, August 25, 2011
Connecting the dots...
In his commencement speech to the graduates of Stanford University in 2005, Steve Jobs sum up his life in three stories.
I love his second story: he talked about connecting the dots and a belief in something, ie.yr guts, destiny, karma, etc., that the dots from the past will connect to the dots in the future. An event/situation happened for a reason and the reason will be known sometime in the future.
Listen to his full speech on youtube here:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D1R-jKKp3NA
I love his second story: he talked about connecting the dots and a belief in something, ie.yr guts, destiny, karma, etc., that the dots from the past will connect to the dots in the future. An event/situation happened for a reason and the reason will be known sometime in the future.
Listen to his full speech on youtube here:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D1R-jKKp3NA
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
How are you, Marvin?
Hi Marvin,
Maybe what I hv written so far may not be in sync with your current train of thoughts. It may seem like I am pushing you to the direction that you cannot or won't take or that I do not understand yr situation. But, if I were to concur with what you hv written, would there then be any room for inner reflection in yr part or mine even? It is because of the differences in our opinions and situations that l believe can create more room for self reflection.
I know, I may sound like I don't understand yr current situation, but I do. Sometimes, there are too many high stakes in the current situation that a mistake can cause a lot of damages. And there is no 'window of opportunity' to get out. I was lucky that I had my window of opportunity but then it came after 10 years! My mother didn't get her window of opportunity because she lived in an era where divorce or separation is unheard of. Having said that maybe her window of opportunity was her ealry death (at the age of 38 yo), ie. releasing her from her torment and sadness.
However, I believe that even though one does not hv the window yet, one can still empower oneself by saying it out loud to someone or write in a journal. Because when you do that, you sort of share your trouble or predicament with someone and somehow it will feel much better and lighter. And the thing will be stored in your memory space and will not occupy your current state of mind (if you know what I mean...).
Anyways, I read in a psychology journal, "a sense of personal control, empowerment and self-determination are associated with positive mental health"
I hope you are getting along fine :)
Warm regards,
Alee.
Maybe what I hv written so far may not be in sync with your current train of thoughts. It may seem like I am pushing you to the direction that you cannot or won't take or that I do not understand yr situation. But, if I were to concur with what you hv written, would there then be any room for inner reflection in yr part or mine even? It is because of the differences in our opinions and situations that l believe can create more room for self reflection.
I know, I may sound like I don't understand yr current situation, but I do. Sometimes, there are too many high stakes in the current situation that a mistake can cause a lot of damages. And there is no 'window of opportunity' to get out. I was lucky that I had my window of opportunity but then it came after 10 years! My mother didn't get her window of opportunity because she lived in an era where divorce or separation is unheard of. Having said that maybe her window of opportunity was her ealry death (at the age of 38 yo), ie. releasing her from her torment and sadness.
However, I believe that even though one does not hv the window yet, one can still empower oneself by saying it out loud to someone or write in a journal. Because when you do that, you sort of share your trouble or predicament with someone and somehow it will feel much better and lighter. And the thing will be stored in your memory space and will not occupy your current state of mind (if you know what I mean...).
Anyways, I read in a psychology journal, "a sense of personal control, empowerment and self-determination are associated with positive mental health"
I hope you are getting along fine :)
Warm regards,
Alee.
Monday, August 22, 2011
A Reader, A Writer and A Converser
Always a book at the side
for a quick escapism
from the harshness of life
into the realm of imagination;
Always a pen in the fingers
to pen down sweet or funny anecdotes
that bring daily cheers
and fun into the life of others;
Always a sweet converser
ever so sensitive to another
although life is no better
in this world filled with trouble.
A reader whose mind I admire
A writer whose words I yearn
A converser whose lips I adore
A heart which I yearn to own :)
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for a quick escapism
from the harshness of life
into the realm of imagination;
Always a pen in the fingers
to pen down sweet or funny anecdotes
that bring daily cheers
and fun into the life of others;
Always a sweet converser
ever so sensitive to another
although life is no better
in this world filled with trouble.
A reader whose mind I admire
A writer whose words I yearn
A converser whose lips I adore
A heart which I yearn to own :)
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Friday, August 19, 2011
A song a day ~
A song a day
Keeps distress at bay
Awaken what may
... to brighten up one's day
A song a day
Lovely music to the ear
When all is played
Soothed the soul of those who hear
A song a day
This I reckon
Will help me stay
... in perfect condition
A song a day...
I am a big fan of narrative works, especially reflective journals. I see song lyrics as a personal narrative where the song writer is actually retelling her story and reflecting over it when she sings it over and over again. To the listener, each has its own interpretation of the song's lyrics.
Songs have been a part of my life since I was young. My mother used to listen to songs every day and I began to appreciate songs in my early teens. I love songs that tell a story. Songs were so much a part of me that it became one of the topic for my toastmasters' speech (back in mid 90's). Lately songs played an even bigger part in my life: I would post songs (on a daily basis) on my fb wall; would dedicate songs to my fb friends; include a song or two in my training sessions and recently I even read a book which the author named it after a song.
It's amazing that there are so many song writers (English, Malay, Japanese and Chinese) who write such good song/lyrics that I could relate to. I can find a song or a part of the lyrics to relate to everything that is happening in my life; whether I am happy, sad or in need of encouragement - there are songs for every mood/occasion.
As I am writing this post, I am listening to a malay song sung by Aizat, "Lagu Kita." I have dedicated this song to my close friends and the lyrics, "arah hidup kita tergambar bintang di angkasa" - our direction in life is destined in our stars: which means that our life's destiny has been fixed the day we were born ~ such lovely lyrics... :)
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Keeps distress at bay
Awaken what may
... to brighten up one's day
A song a day
Lovely music to the ear
When all is played
Soothed the soul of those who hear
A song a day
This I reckon
Will help me stay
... in perfect condition
A song a day...
I am a big fan of narrative works, especially reflective journals. I see song lyrics as a personal narrative where the song writer is actually retelling her story and reflecting over it when she sings it over and over again. To the listener, each has its own interpretation of the song's lyrics.
Songs have been a part of my life since I was young. My mother used to listen to songs every day and I began to appreciate songs in my early teens. I love songs that tell a story. Songs were so much a part of me that it became one of the topic for my toastmasters' speech (back in mid 90's). Lately songs played an even bigger part in my life: I would post songs (on a daily basis) on my fb wall; would dedicate songs to my fb friends; include a song or two in my training sessions and recently I even read a book which the author named it after a song.
It's amazing that there are so many song writers (English, Malay, Japanese and Chinese) who write such good song/lyrics that I could relate to. I can find a song or a part of the lyrics to relate to everything that is happening in my life; whether I am happy, sad or in need of encouragement - there are songs for every mood/occasion.
As I am writing this post, I am listening to a malay song sung by Aizat, "Lagu Kita." I have dedicated this song to my close friends and the lyrics, "arah hidup kita tergambar bintang di angkasa" - our direction in life is destined in our stars: which means that our life's destiny has been fixed the day we were born ~ such lovely lyrics... :)
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Tuesday, August 16, 2011
ME ~ my life is my choice
When I was thniking of a name for my blog, I had wanted to name it my life is my choice but then many bloggers have already claimed the name and similar ones. Hence, I decided to name it authentic person ~ it turned out to be true because that was the essence of the blog -- searching for the authenticness in me : what is ME all about (???)
ME as it turned out have been lugging along many baggages -- some of which I have thrown out since I started the blog and I hv added on new and more ligther ones which do not bogged or tied me down. See March 24, 2010 and Sep 6, 2010 posts.
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ME as it turned out have many dreams -- some which have been realised, some just realised and many more have yet to be realised. See March 4, 2011 post.
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ME as it turned out was soon to be embarking on a spiritual journey -- a journey that has so far bring me to meet people that could help me along the way to reach my spiritual journey's desttination (is there one?). See Sep 21, 2010 ; Nov 4, 2010(a) and Nov 4, 2010(b) posts.
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ME as it turned out have many friends - who have been so kind and supportive in helping me all this while. See May 6, 2011 post.
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ME as it turned out -- do have a wonderful and illustrative life which I will not trade with another.
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Happy ME Day! :))
ME as it turned out have been lugging along many baggages -- some of which I have thrown out since I started the blog and I hv added on new and more ligther ones which do not bogged or tied me down. See March 24, 2010 and Sep 6, 2010 posts.
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ME as it turned out have many dreams -- some which have been realised, some just realised and many more have yet to be realised. See March 4, 2011 post.
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ME as it turned out was soon to be embarking on a spiritual journey -- a journey that has so far bring me to meet people that could help me along the way to reach my spiritual journey's desttination (is there one?). See Sep 21, 2010 ; Nov 4, 2010(a) and Nov 4, 2010(b) posts.
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ME as it turned out have many friends - who have been so kind and supportive in helping me all this while. See May 6, 2011 post.
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ME as it turned out -- do have a wonderful and illustrative life which I will not trade with another.
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Happy ME Day! :))
Wednesday, June 8, 2011
Numerology: Vision and Number
"Numbers are an inspirational journey where it unlocks the door to self-awareness. They inspire one to question life’s purpose and seek the truth of self-realization. You will be amazed to know that numbers can tell a lot about almost everything that links to every human form and the environment surrounding us"
I have wondered about my affinity with number '9' since 18yo (ref. post on May 2, 2011). And last month, a friend introduced Visiber (Vision + Number) to me and through it I found out that indeed my base number is '9' and the personality trait of number 9's is very optimistic and open minded; loves to look neat and presentable at all times; very civilized, intelligent, alertness and sensitive. '9' knows when and how to attack and defend. Good at winning one's heart. Do things very fast and capable with their work but not in details. He/she doesn't take care of his subordinates. Outwardly, looks tough but soft inside. An emotional person, feeling of loneliness. Hmmm... I think the last three lines do not apply to me because I trust and respect my staff more than my clients. I am very resilient which can be translated to being tough and whenever I feel lonely or bored, I will look for a book to read/blog or call/look for my friends.
Apparently, each of us is born with a certain set of numbers. When some of the numbers are missing in our life, we are unable to reach our potential in life and may face many obstacles. Hence numerology can be used to lead us back to the right life path and live the life meant to be. Now, if you are like me: a believer in the power of the universal laws and LoA, it would be easy to believe in numerology as well. It is said that with the knowledge of your hidden field of potential and an in-depth understanding, you can gain mileage in a more profound life experience, which could be within your grasp and ultimate control. Life’s destiny is not destined without mercy nor control, but certainly within your capacity to crystallize a situation for yourself.
I am a believer and am practising it ~ hoping that it will lead me to the right path in my quest to live an authentic life :)
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I have wondered about my affinity with number '9' since 18yo (ref. post on May 2, 2011). And last month, a friend introduced Visiber (Vision + Number) to me and through it I found out that indeed my base number is '9' and the personality trait of number 9's is very optimistic and open minded; loves to look neat and presentable at all times; very civilized, intelligent, alertness and sensitive. '9' knows when and how to attack and defend. Good at winning one's heart. Do things very fast and capable with their work but not in details. He/she doesn't take care of his subordinates. Outwardly, looks tough but soft inside. An emotional person, feeling of loneliness. Hmmm... I think the last three lines do not apply to me because I trust and respect my staff more than my clients. I am very resilient which can be translated to being tough and whenever I feel lonely or bored, I will look for a book to read/blog or call/look for my friends.
Apparently, each of us is born with a certain set of numbers. When some of the numbers are missing in our life, we are unable to reach our potential in life and may face many obstacles. Hence numerology can be used to lead us back to the right life path and live the life meant to be. Now, if you are like me: a believer in the power of the universal laws and LoA, it would be easy to believe in numerology as well. It is said that with the knowledge of your hidden field of potential and an in-depth understanding, you can gain mileage in a more profound life experience, which could be within your grasp and ultimate control. Life’s destiny is not destined without mercy nor control, but certainly within your capacity to crystallize a situation for yourself.
I am a believer and am practising it ~ hoping that it will lead me to the right path in my quest to live an authentic life :)
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Sunday, May 29, 2011
How happy are you at the moment?
I was reading a book about developing happiness in daily living and found this simple scale interesting. It was devised by psychologist Edward Diener, the founding father of happiness research in the 1980s. The scale has been widely used by researchers.
Read the following five statements. Then used a 1 - 7 scale to rate your level of agreement. I found the same scale on Oprah.com, go to the link below if you wish to do it on Oprah's website.
Scale:
Not at all true (choose either 1 or 2)
Moderately true (choose 3, 4 or 5)
Absolutely ture (choose 6 or 7)
Statements:
1. in most way my life is close to my ideal ( )
2. the conditions of my life are excellent ( )
3. I am satisfied with my life ( )
4. so far, I have gotten the important things I want in life ( )
5. if I could live my life over, I would change almost nothing ( )
Scoring:
31 to 35 - you are extremely satisfied with your life
26 to 30 - very satisfied
21 to 25 - slightly sattisfied
20 - neutral point
15 to 19 - slightly dissatisfied
10 to 14 - dissatisfied
5 to 9 - extremely dissatisfied
I do not have anger in my life at the moment but a little dissatisfaction to iron out. Am working on it and hope my dissatisfaction will decrease :))
http://www.oprah.com/spirit/Satisfaction-with-Life-Scale
Read the following five statements. Then used a 1 - 7 scale to rate your level of agreement. I found the same scale on Oprah.com, go to the link below if you wish to do it on Oprah's website.
Scale:
Not at all true (choose either 1 or 2)
Moderately true (choose 3, 4 or 5)
Absolutely ture (choose 6 or 7)
Statements:
1. in most way my life is close to my ideal ( )
2. the conditions of my life are excellent ( )
3. I am satisfied with my life ( )
4. so far, I have gotten the important things I want in life ( )
5. if I could live my life over, I would change almost nothing ( )
Scoring:
31 to 35 - you are extremely satisfied with your life
26 to 30 - very satisfied
21 to 25 - slightly sattisfied
20 - neutral point
15 to 19 - slightly dissatisfied
10 to 14 - dissatisfied
5 to 9 - extremely dissatisfied
I do not have anger in my life at the moment but a little dissatisfaction to iron out. Am working on it and hope my dissatisfaction will decrease :))
http://www.oprah.com/spirit/Satisfaction-with-Life-Scale
Friday, May 6, 2011
A friend in need
New entry, 8 May 2011:
Last month, I was asked by a friend to read: 'Secrets of the millionaire mind' by T. Harv Eker. I have not been reading any motivational book for the past 15 years - especially books on how to be rich! I don't buy the stuff they wrote and actually kept my distance from such books. However, since I am not reading any book in particular at the moment, I decided to give the book a try.
Wow, I was in for a surprise ~ he is one provocative speaker! His first chapter, 'Your Money Blueprint', had me saying to myself, "He is right, it does make sense." I was thinking of Pavlov's and Skinner's human conditioning and behavioural reinforcement theories. Most of the stuff he wrote, does indeed make sense and I am thinking of re-reading it.
Now, the reason I added this new entry here is to stress a point that Harv Eker has made, ie. "rich people are excellent receivers, poor people are poor receivers." Frankly speaking, I don't want to be rich for the sake of being rich, but I want to live a life that enable me to help people unconditionally. I can't be there if I don't have financial freedom :(
Relating to the last entry in this post, in the last paragraph, I wrote: "I am humbled to have them as my friends." Now, if I were to apply what Harv Eker said ~ I am not a good receiver. I should instead say to myself, "I am glad there are such good people around me and I need more good people." It is true that what you focus on expands, thus if I say that, I am placing focus on more good people coming to help me, hence the law of the universe will make it happen.
Reading this book got me thinking of my definition of authentic person/authentic living. If you noticed, since my first post (4 Jan 2010), I did not give a description on what I think authentic person/authentic living is all about. Honestly, I had felt that it is very individualised and subjective, ie. you live on what you think is true not based on what others think you should be like. I have given this some thought and may come up with my own definition some time soon :)
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Entry on 6 May 2011:
I am thankful to have a staff who has turned into a very good friend ~ if I were to say in so much as I need something or missed eating something - she will get it for me in a day or two or cook/buy for me; and most recently I was looking for a place to relocate my centre - she (together with her husband) went round the neighbour hood and immediately let me know where there are houses for rent, even get the hp numbers for me. The relocation had troubled me because I was only given a month to vacate due to the change of my business status.
Being my staff, one may say that she did those things to gain my favour, but truthfully speaking, she didn't even ask for any special favours and declined my offer to promote her (she doesn't fancy dealing with too many people).
I don't wish to say that I am blessed to have such good people around me, but I want to say that I admire their goodness and truly bless them and I will return their good in my own way. I am humbled to have them as my friends :))
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Last month, I was asked by a friend to read: 'Secrets of the millionaire mind' by T. Harv Eker. I have not been reading any motivational book for the past 15 years - especially books on how to be rich! I don't buy the stuff they wrote and actually kept my distance from such books. However, since I am not reading any book in particular at the moment, I decided to give the book a try.
Wow, I was in for a surprise ~ he is one provocative speaker! His first chapter, 'Your Money Blueprint', had me saying to myself, "He is right, it does make sense." I was thinking of Pavlov's and Skinner's human conditioning and behavioural reinforcement theories. Most of the stuff he wrote, does indeed make sense and I am thinking of re-reading it.
Now, the reason I added this new entry here is to stress a point that Harv Eker has made, ie. "rich people are excellent receivers, poor people are poor receivers." Frankly speaking, I don't want to be rich for the sake of being rich, but I want to live a life that enable me to help people unconditionally. I can't be there if I don't have financial freedom :(
Relating to the last entry in this post, in the last paragraph, I wrote: "I am humbled to have them as my friends." Now, if I were to apply what Harv Eker said ~ I am not a good receiver. I should instead say to myself, "I am glad there are such good people around me and I need more good people." It is true that what you focus on expands, thus if I say that, I am placing focus on more good people coming to help me, hence the law of the universe will make it happen.
Reading this book got me thinking of my definition of authentic person/authentic living. If you noticed, since my first post (4 Jan 2010), I did not give a description on what I think authentic person/authentic living is all about. Honestly, I had felt that it is very individualised and subjective, ie. you live on what you think is true not based on what others think you should be like. I have given this some thought and may come up with my own definition some time soon :)
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Entry on 6 May 2011:
I am thankful to have a staff who has turned into a very good friend ~ if I were to say in so much as I need something or missed eating something - she will get it for me in a day or two or cook/buy for me; and most recently I was looking for a place to relocate my centre - she (together with her husband) went round the neighbour hood and immediately let me know where there are houses for rent, even get the hp numbers for me. The relocation had troubled me because I was only given a month to vacate due to the change of my business status.
Being my staff, one may say that she did those things to gain my favour, but truthfully speaking, she didn't even ask for any special favours and declined my offer to promote her (she doesn't fancy dealing with too many people).
I don't wish to say that I am blessed to have such good people around me, but I want to say that I admire their goodness and truly bless them and I will return their good in my own way. I am humbled to have them as my friends :))
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Monday, May 2, 2011
Number 9
Have you ever been told that you have an affinity to a certain number?
When I was 9 years old, I was told that the number 9 would be a very special number for me. At that young age, I don't know anything about numerology, did not pay any attention to it.
Then, when I was 15yo, I obtained a total aggregate of 9 for a major exam and at 17yo, an aggregate of 18 for another major exam. Looking at my results, it struck me that I do have some sort of relationship with the number 9! I do not know how the relationship works, but I have since taken number 9 as my lucky number ~ any major event in my life, after that realisation, would be planned on th 9th or 18th day of the month (the two most favourite numbers) and to a lesser degree, on the 27th. By far, 18 is my most favourite number ~ my handphone number ends with 1800 :)
When I went looking to purchase a house, I bought one next to a number 18. Most recently, I found a rented place which faces house number 18 and beside house number 9. I am now living in this rented place and is trying to understand more deeply the extend of my relationship with number 9.
Btw, as I write this post, my visitor counter stands at 1080 :))
Monday, April 25, 2011
Just One More Breath
The space between life and death = one breath!
Life can be so easily taken from us ~ just a breath away.
Life is so fragile ~ we do not know when our final breath would be: tonight, tomorrow, day after... ???
A good friend of mine lost her eldest daugther in a motor accident last night. Her daughter was in her early twenties. When I first received the news, I could not believe it - I told myself they must have mistaken, it must be someone else. I tried calling my friend but couldn't get thru to her. Then this morning, at 6.30am, my friend sent me a message: "Alee, I have lost my daughter, forever" That message really broke my heart. I called her and tried to console her. Deep down in my heart, I know that any parent who had just lost a child would be unconsolable. I told her that I will be there for her, call me whenever she wants to talk to somebody. I hope that she will find comfort from her family members.
Does knowing that life is short makes one more afraid to die or more determine to live a happy and fulfilling one? My choice is the latter :)
Life can be so easily taken from us ~ just a breath away.
Life is so fragile ~ we do not know when our final breath would be: tonight, tomorrow, day after... ???
A good friend of mine lost her eldest daugther in a motor accident last night. Her daughter was in her early twenties. When I first received the news, I could not believe it - I told myself they must have mistaken, it must be someone else. I tried calling my friend but couldn't get thru to her. Then this morning, at 6.30am, my friend sent me a message: "Alee, I have lost my daughter, forever" That message really broke my heart. I called her and tried to console her. Deep down in my heart, I know that any parent who had just lost a child would be unconsolable. I told her that I will be there for her, call me whenever she wants to talk to somebody. I hope that she will find comfort from her family members.
Does knowing that life is short makes one more afraid to die or more determine to live a happy and fulfilling one? My choice is the latter :)
Sunday, April 17, 2011
Remembering Mom
It is now past 1am ~ I am in a melancholic mood and thinking of my mom. A close female friend's predicament has triggered my melancholic feeling and the sudden thought of my mother.
I did not have the opportunity to know my mother very well. She passed away after a bout of illnesses. I was 13 yo then. I had felt for many years later that her death was untimely and I missed her a lot. I had gathered from the promise my mother made to me that her life was not the life that she had planned. She made the promise to me when she was lying in the hospital bed but sadly she was unable to fulfil it due to her early death.
My mother's life experience has taught me to believe in myself and not to depend on others. She was the reason for the way I think and the actions I had taken that have gotten me exactly where I am today, right now. The memory of her gave me the strength to do what I had to do to live the life I wanted.
My wish for all women in the world ~ live the life that you want and don't let others tell you otherwise :)
I did not have the opportunity to know my mother very well. She passed away after a bout of illnesses. I was 13 yo then. I had felt for many years later that her death was untimely and I missed her a lot. I had gathered from the promise my mother made to me that her life was not the life that she had planned. She made the promise to me when she was lying in the hospital bed but sadly she was unable to fulfil it due to her early death.
My mother's life experience has taught me to believe in myself and not to depend on others. She was the reason for the way I think and the actions I had taken that have gotten me exactly where I am today, right now. The memory of her gave me the strength to do what I had to do to live the life I wanted.
My wish for all women in the world ~ live the life that you want and don't let others tell you otherwise :)
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
Unicity
New entry (22 Apr 2012)
Considering that this post gets quite a number of viewers, I have to make it clear that I posted the car pics here not because that they are expensive/luxury cars but... because of the registration number, ie. no. 9!! If you have browsed my blog, you will read a post about the number 9 :)
It has been a year since I was introduced to Unicity and I am happy to say that I am enjoying better health and is less worried about my health condition nowadays. The results can be seen by the many comments (compliments!!??) I received, eg.
"you look brighter these days",
"you have lost weight!",
"you look younger!" ...
But then it is not how I look, but how I feel inside is important :))
Last Entry (12 Apr 2011)
Haha..., you will be wondering why I have all these pix of luxury cars in my supposedly authentic livling blog??? Please read on to find out...
I was introduced to Unicity by a friend last month. Anyone who is into body detox and herbal products will ultimately be introduced to Unicity (my believe ~ unless you are already a practitioner of natural home remedies and herbal stuff). Hence, if you are a follower or just happened to browse my blog, let me share my experience with you here...
As you can see from my past entries (postings), I have wrote about my search for a detox program and the health farm that I have gone through to gain knowledge about healthy lifestyle. My life at this juncture, I would say that I have time freedom but not so much of financial freedom and even less health freedom. The latter has been worrying me for the past year. Then, I was introduced to the "Happy Life Project", a program designed by an organisation, Unipower, which is based in Bangkok, Thailand. Unipower is the business partner of Unicity (USA). Unipower has touched the life of thousands of people in Thailand and Unicity's herbal products have helped more than a million people there, including people suffering from illnesses such as diabetes, high blood pressure, chollestrol, hormone imbalance, etc. Others who are not suffering from any illness, like me, take the products to maintain good health in order to achieve health freedom status.
After hearing about the goodness of Unicity products and the viable system designed by Unipower, I decided to take a trip to Bangkok with my friends to attend a Unipower seminar last weekend. As my friend said, you need to be present (there in Bangkok) to feel the energy and vibration from the 10,000 people who are in the huge hall! Believed me, I FELT THE ENERGY!!! I was mesmerised by the huge crowd!
After the seminar, I had the priviliged of meeting the Unipower founder at his guest house located in the affluent housing estate in Bangkok. Again, I was mesmerised by the huge lovely house and all the luxury cars (a white lamborghini, a white bentley, a white porche cayenne and a black sport merc) he has in his driveway. Looking at him (at forty-plus), he is full of vitality and exudes good health ~ he looks like a young child full of enthusiasm and life. In order to protect his privacy, I will not post his pic here but posted some pix of his luxury cars.
Well, if you are given the opportunity to be introduced to Unicity, please listen and try out their products. You don't have to look further ~ you will gain your health freedom soon, and the time and financial freedom as well and live a happy and fulfilling life...
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Considering that this post gets quite a number of viewers, I have to make it clear that I posted the car pics here not because that they are expensive/luxury cars but... because of the registration number, ie. no. 9!! If you have browsed my blog, you will read a post about the number 9 :)
It has been a year since I was introduced to Unicity and I am happy to say that I am enjoying better health and is less worried about my health condition nowadays. The results can be seen by the many comments (compliments!!??) I received, eg.
"you look brighter these days",
"you have lost weight!",
"you look younger!" ...
But then it is not how I look, but how I feel inside is important :))
Last Entry (12 Apr 2011)
Haha..., you will be wondering why I have all these pix of luxury cars in my supposedly authentic livling blog??? Please read on to find out...
I was introduced to Unicity by a friend last month. Anyone who is into body detox and herbal products will ultimately be introduced to Unicity (my believe ~ unless you are already a practitioner of natural home remedies and herbal stuff). Hence, if you are a follower or just happened to browse my blog, let me share my experience with you here...
As you can see from my past entries (postings), I have wrote about my search for a detox program and the health farm that I have gone through to gain knowledge about healthy lifestyle. My life at this juncture, I would say that I have time freedom but not so much of financial freedom and even less health freedom. The latter has been worrying me for the past year. Then, I was introduced to the "Happy Life Project", a program designed by an organisation, Unipower, which is based in Bangkok, Thailand. Unipower is the business partner of Unicity (USA). Unipower has touched the life of thousands of people in Thailand and Unicity's herbal products have helped more than a million people there, including people suffering from illnesses such as diabetes, high blood pressure, chollestrol, hormone imbalance, etc. Others who are not suffering from any illness, like me, take the products to maintain good health in order to achieve health freedom status.
After hearing about the goodness of Unicity products and the viable system designed by Unipower, I decided to take a trip to Bangkok with my friends to attend a Unipower seminar last weekend. As my friend said, you need to be present (there in Bangkok) to feel the energy and vibration from the 10,000 people who are in the huge hall! Believed me, I FELT THE ENERGY!!! I was mesmerised by the huge crowd!
After the seminar, I had the priviliged of meeting the Unipower founder at his guest house located in the affluent housing estate in Bangkok. Again, I was mesmerised by the huge lovely house and all the luxury cars (a white lamborghini, a white bentley, a white porche cayenne and a black sport merc) he has in his driveway. Looking at him (at forty-plus), he is full of vitality and exudes good health ~ he looks like a young child full of enthusiasm and life. In order to protect his privacy, I will not post his pic here but posted some pix of his luxury cars.
Well, if you are given the opportunity to be introduced to Unicity, please listen and try out their products. You don't have to look further ~ you will gain your health freedom soon, and the time and financial freedom as well and live a happy and fulfilling life...
.
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
A letter to 'Future Me'
New entry, April 1, 2011:
I just came across a website, futureme.org: letters to the future. This website allows you to write an email to yourself and you can choose to receive it on any date in the future. I thought that was really cool! I am putting the link here (see below)for anyone interested to try it out :D)
Entry on March 30, 2011:
A letter to 'Future Me' -- I read the article in a magazine and thought it is an interesting way to get a person to look within them to search for what s/he would like to do but was unable to and his/her aspiration for the future.
Writing a letter to the future me allows the person to reflect and set her/his life back into the path that s/he wants to take. I think the process will help the person to look at her/his life objectively, ie. take stock of her/his life and do whatever is necessary to live a happy life henceforth.
I have promised myself that I will write a letter to 'future me' -- about the things and changes that I have made to live the life of an authentic person. I don't like to plan things too far ahead, hence my letter to the future me will be an annual affair.
"http://futureme.org/"
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I just came across a website, futureme.org: letters to the future. This website allows you to write an email to yourself and you can choose to receive it on any date in the future. I thought that was really cool! I am putting the link here (see below)for anyone interested to try it out :D)
Entry on March 30, 2011:
A letter to 'Future Me' -- I read the article in a magazine and thought it is an interesting way to get a person to look within them to search for what s/he would like to do but was unable to and his/her aspiration for the future.
Writing a letter to the future me allows the person to reflect and set her/his life back into the path that s/he wants to take. I think the process will help the person to look at her/his life objectively, ie. take stock of her/his life and do whatever is necessary to live a happy life henceforth.
I have promised myself that I will write a letter to 'future me' -- about the things and changes that I have made to live the life of an authentic person. I don't like to plan things too far ahead, hence my letter to the future me will be an annual affair.
"http://futureme.org/"
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Sunday, March 27, 2011
An uneasy feeling...
New entry, April 3, 2011:
The first 3 days of April has been good so far ~ the uneasy feeling is gone and I am feeling much brighter and happier now :)
On reflection, whenever one has an uneasy feeling, one always thought of it in a negative way: uneasiness = bad feeling (ie. something bad going to happen). I think the uneasy feeling I experienced was not a bad feeling afer all, but about tuning in to the universal laws. If you are interested in tuning to your inner self, you will realise that everyone of us has our very own cosmic force. This cosmic force allows us to be in tune with the universal laws or nature's laws. I believe everyone of us is connected to each other, one way or another ~ we are after all a part of the one great Universal Whole. So, when one's cosmic force is awaken, one's consciousness will be transmited into energy which anything and everything, both seen and unseen, is comprised of.
I believe my cosmic force has brought two new people into my life. These two persons were introduced to me by two of my friends and the one singular thing that we all (five of us) have in common is that we share the same chinese horoscope. For many years, I have experienced working harmoniously with people of the same chinese horoscope with me; we are somehow in tuned to each other. So I have no qualms at all when given the opportunity to work with such people.
I believe that the two persons I had just met could provide me more opportunity to live authentically. I can see that these two persons could be the ones that can help me to achieve higher spiritual growth :)
Entry posted on March 27, 2011:
I have been having this uneasy feeling for the past weeks -- I feel like something is going to happen, but, WHAT???
Things that normally go smoothly did not go too well, like: I missed the dateline of my bills, had a terribly bad sore throat and nearly lost my voice (my voice is my work), home appliance not working as it should, my car engine is not as smooth as it used to be (though I have just serviced it), etc. Hmmm... to calm myself, I kept telling myself that the month will pass and all will be well again. I am looking forward to next month!
April will be here in 3 days time, hope all will be well... :)
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Friday, March 4, 2011
Goals vs Dreams
"A goal is a dream with a deadline" (Napoleon Hill)
Dreams on the other hand ~ "pass into the reality of action. From the action stems the dream again; and this interdependence produces the highest form of living" (Anais Nin)
New entry (March 14, 2011)
Barack Obama’s dream is — 'bring about real change, change that we can believe in.'
He has proven that if someone has a clear authentic dream, responds to it with love and passion, has the courage to pursue this dream, has faith in him/herself, and lives according to their dream, this dream will guide that person’s life and will result in purposeful and resolute actions. He took the responsibility to identify with his dreams and hope, and to respond to them with love and passion.
Entry posted on March 4, 2011:
I don't make goals but I have dreams. I realised one of my earliest dream in early 90's. Realising my dream made me believed that dream does come true! I have never stop dreaming ever since. Many more dreams has came true for me. One of my early 90's dreams came true in early 2000's (which has since paved way to more dreams). The most recent dream that came true was the one in early last year; another came true today; and one more in the pipeline waiting to be realised, hopefully this September. But then, since it is a dream, whether or not it materialised doesn't bother me; by focusing on it long enough, it will materialised when the right time comes along (ie. when its time to ripen).
I would not say that they materialised due to luck alone but in fact, I was preparing myself and waiting for them to materialise. Dreams do come true, one just need to be prepared and ready to accept them (sometimes, it does take a number of years, though, hahaha... even a decade!, ~ one need to have lots of perseverance and patience). When they do come true, you will feel a sense of real joy in your heart and only those who had their dream came true will truly understand the feeling.
"Dreams come true; without that possibility, nature would not incite us to have them" (John Updike).
Sunday, February 27, 2011
Being mindful
I snapped at a good friend yesterday over a problem in my computer. Usually, I would have let it go, but this friend has done it again (changed my computer setting for the second time). I guess, the reason I snapped at her was more like to let her know that I was not pleased with her for messing with my computer (which is a personalised item) and that if she had wanted to change something, please check with me first (I thought this is plain courtesy). That was also the reason why I did not apologise immediately after that. However, my mind kept thinking about the matter and I realised that I must apologise in order to be at peace with myself. "A mind that cannot release phenomena is in a state of intoxication; it is important not be intoxicated" (Ven. Ajahn Chah).
So, I pondered over how should I apologise to her and decided on sending her a text message to confess and say that I was sorry that I lost control earlier. She texted back and said that it is okay, she understood that I was not in a good mood. I would have replied: thank you for understanding, but I didn't because I was not seeking for her understanding; I was seeking to release my mind of the matter so that I can be at peace (and not be intoxicated). Now this may sound very selfish, but I think to be mindful, we must first understand what clutters our mind. The whole incident wouldn't have happened if I do not have a cluttered mind, something must have bothered me to such an extent that I snapped at her earlier. My cluttered mind has impeded my thoughtfullness. I did not wish for this state of mind to continue, lest I will be snapping at every one I meet in the next few days ~ I need to clear my mind!
Therefore, I have to watch my mind and become aware of my thoughts; "paying attention in a particular way -- on purpose, in the present moment”(Jon Kabat-Zinn). The best way I can think of to explain this is ~ knowing that you are eating is not the same as eating mindfully (a quote from the Wildmind Buddhist Meditation @
http://www.wildmind.org/applied/daily-life/what-is-mindfulness
Here I would like to share a link on a talk given by Jon Kabat-Zinn on mindfulness (please skip the silly intro part). He talks with such truthfulness and authenticness. I love listening to him talk.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3nwwKbM_vJc&feature=related
Friday, February 18, 2011
Soulmate: compatibility or complementing
I have always been intrigued with the notion of finding one's soulmate. I had reflected upon this notion many years ago and had concluded (then) that, "soulmate is hard to identify instantaneously and most people do not meet theirs in their current lifetime." I had pondered on its definition: a person with whom one has a feeling of deep and natural affinity; similarity; love; intimacy; sexuality; spirituality; or compatibility. In a related (spiritual) concept: is that of the twin flame or twin soul, which is thought to be the ultimate soulmate.
Therefore, when two person (putting gender aside) have the capability of existing or performing in harmonious or congenial combination, does it mean that they have found their soulmate? Does this mean that one's soulmate can be one's sister, brother, female friend, male friend or anyone who has established a close and harmonious relationship with us? I think this is possible and I believe that one can have more than one soulmates in one's life; they appear at a certain phase of our life to bring balance and harmony into our life.
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